Fear confuses. It is an illusion. It can be a delusion. Fear captures us up quickly if we don’t shut it down. Fear is a road block to our purpose. It imprisons us in a web of deceptions. When validated, we can’t escape its hold on us. Fear is our enemy, our rival, our destroyer. However, we can overcome fear. We can claim victory over fear. We can defeat fear. How? Through faith in our living God. He knows fear is out to take us from Him who made us strong and powerful enough to annihilate fear.
I know humankind loves to maintain control in all avenues of their life. Still, God is in control of our lives, and that should give us peace and relief. God gives us life, and only He can take it away, all in His timing. So, what do we have to fear? Why do we fight God for control? And we do, even me? However, I embrace who I am, and instead of validating the fear that constantly presents itself before me, like a snake ready to devour, I have learned to overcome it with one word; “JESUS”. I believe with everything that I am that there is power in the name of Jesus. I don’t just believe it, I know it to be true.
Two years ago, I lay on an operating table ready to give my trust over to a doctor I had never met before. I was terrified. The anesthesiologist wheeled me away from my husband, who was tearing up, as they pushed my bed down a long hallway until I could no longer see my sweet hubby’s face. I pushed away the tears trying to break through, but somehow began singing; “Still I dance in the storm and sing of being born, again and again, and a day. While this world falls apart, I stand strong to impart what is true, and what is true is found in me, made whole through you, I rejoice.” These were song lyrics that I had written for my band, True Witness. We performed them many times. However, they never meant more to me than in this moment, right here, right now. I felt strangely alone.
They placed my body on the cold operating table in a freezing cold, sterile operating room, and immediately began prepping me. My arms were stretched out and tied down. An oxygen mask was placed over my face. I could not bare the fear as it was overtaking me. My heart was racing. I had nowhere to hide but in Jesus.
I began to say out loud; “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus” over and again. “Help me Jesus.” I probably spoke Jesus’s name at least a few hundred times before going to sleep. As soon as I said my first “Jesus”, I felt a peace come over me. That peace became stronger and I became more focused. My faith was growing and I was feeling warmer, safer, and at rest. I know the staff heard me. I wasn’t whispering. I only hope and pray that even one might actually have “heard” me enough to seek the answers they were longing for.
I felt a hand gently stroke my cheek, and say; “It’s going to be okay. Don’t fear. You are going to be fine. I am here.” At that moment, I thought how nice the anesthesiologist was to offer this sweet gesture. However, was it the anesthesiologist that stroked my face that day? Maybe I know that answer. Maybe I can’t say. However, I believe that God intervened. I know who was there, and I was fully aware of my surroundings. I know in my heart that I was not present in my body of fear, but present in spirit with the Lord, and that made all the difference.
God is good all the time. All the time God is good. I opened my eyes and saw my hubby, my kids, and my life waiting for me. My husband told me that everything was perfect. The surgery went well. No problems were detected. Praise God. I was better. Again Praise God. Jesus is the healer, you know.
After major surgery, I was out of the hospital within the hour, at home, and even walked for fifteen minutes outside that evening. I walked every day immediately following surgery and recovered in record time.
There is power in the name of Jesus. Cry out to Jesus. He is waiting to hear from you. He was waiting on me. I cried out. I called out. He was there. I will never forget what Jesus has done for me. He gave me so much life and so much love. My life is amazing because Jesus lives and he lives in me.
I could never thank God enough for the gift of life, or love, or for the hope He has given me. My faith is made stronger because I learned to walk on water, reaching for my Lord who saves me every day. He saves me from myself. The Lord knows I have called out to him more than a few times in my life, and he is always there, and I always receive an answer. My redeemer, my rescuer, my Savior lives.
I hope that you find this peace in your life. Every day, I pray the lyrics of a song called OCEANS by Hillsong. The are:
“Spirit lead me when my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the water, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander. That my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.”
Don’t wander here on earth. Take faith deeper, and discover the peace and joy of wandering where the Lord would lead you.
For as J.R.R Tolkien writes;
- “All that is gold does not glitter,
- Not all those who wander are lost;
- The old that is strong does not wither,
- Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
- From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
- A light from the shadows shall spring;
- Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
- The crownless again shall be king.“
I pray up this song of hope; “Here I am before your great throne, humble yet willing, in Christ I have grown. I am your living, holy sacrifice. Aromas I offer before my Lord’s eyes. Here’s my spirit worshipping you. Abba, my Father.”
Either way you pray…PRAY! God is so good at listening and directing your paths.
PEACE, LOVE, HOPE, and JOY! God is good…………………………….